Wednesday, March 16, 2011


Single life sucks, especially when you feel ready to find the one and settle down. But, I guess it is not in the plan for me right now.

When looking around at couples, I have discovered that there are different types. There are the couples that look like they do not go together at all. Like the dangerously gorgeous guy and the simply repulsive chick... or vice versa. The 10 with the -2. Or you have your couples that look more like siblings than a potential spouse and you wonder what their children will look like, or you are certain that their children will be the splitting image of them, because there really is no other option. There are also the couples that are a perfect match. the 10's with the 10's, the 1's with the 1's.

I wonder what kind of couple I will be a part of... I wonder if I will ever have the opportunity to fit into one of these categories. Honestly, I don't care which one I am a part of. I just want t be a part of one of them.

I just want to fall and be fallen for...


Monday, March 14, 2011

Spring Break.. In the Cove

Spring Break is when people are usually out, working on their tans, partying with complete strangers, and making memories, most of which they will not remember. So, I am going to tell you what my Spring Break entailed.

First, I came home, after an easy midterm. The single-life doesn't have much to offer a 22-year-old female during Spring Break. When I should be working on my beach-bod, instead I am filling out application after application, trying to figure out what I am going to be doing within the couple months. Everything I really want to be doing seems so out of my reach. Poeple say they see big things for my future, well, stuck in this small town isn't going to get me much of anywhere. I always thought I would be doing PR for some celebrity or professional athlete.

This year, I got tired of being pushed around and cut some people out of my life, I made some changes, and I have never been better. However, there is a point that you look back on the past and you wonder, "Could I have done something differently to get me to where I want to be now? Was there a short cut?" Truth be told, I don't believe in short cuts. I believe you have to work for what you want. You have to be willing to place yourself on the line for those things, as risky as it may seem. All 5'2'' of me is ready to move on and get to where I need to be. Graduation is quickly approaching, and what am I doing over my Spring Break? Research, research, and did I mention research? I am looking for career opportunities, were I feel my abilities will be most needed and cherished. I want to make a difference and be on a team that I believe in.

So, while others are lying on the beach, I am jumping in my tannig bed for ten minute increments and figuring out my life. So, if you have any adivce, it's welcomed, but until my life is on track toward success, I won't be completely happy.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Bagged Jello: Ew, Gross.

Again, it has been such a long time ago that I began this blog, but I am going to try to do better at keeping up with this.

Yesterday I went to Sheetz, like most Geneva students do in their spare time. Hungry, I made a poor choice. I bought finger jello in a bag. It was worse than gross. But, hungry, I tried to continue to eat it. I have decided to throw out the rest.

Life is somewhat boring. So much has changed in my life since I began this blog. I feel as if the girl that began this blog is nothing but a distant memory to me. There are voids in my life waiting to be filled and there are other parts of me that are thankful for the unaswered prayers. Sometimes, blessings are found in the prayers that we seemed to think would make our lives run smoothly. Life isn't about a smooth ride; it is about the ups and the downs and finding out how to stand.

Recently, I stumbled across a quote that summed up how I feel about my current circumstances:

"When you come to the end of all the light you know, and it's time to step into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things shall happen: Either you will be given something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly." - Edward Teller

I've learned to have faith in the tough times and in the good. I have found that the key to happiness is not found within someone else, but in finding hope that everything will work out. Happiness is a choice.

When I bought the jello and realized how nasty it really is, I laughed about it and enjoyed the conversations that arose from it. Life is about taking chances. Some do not always turn out to be the right ones, but you learn and good can come from the negative. Like art, life is all about perspective. Take chances, some will be good, some won't be. You will not be left wondering, "What if?"

This is a somewhat silly blog. <3

Sunday, March 28, 2010

A Long Time Ago

A long time ago I began this site. I thought I would keep it up to date. I started it with good intentions, much like everything else I do. I thought this was something I would actually do. Well, lots has happened since that long time ago. There is too much for me to blog about. I just wanted to post. I wanted to prove to myself that I could. I wanted something to make sense. So, I guess this is as close as I can get to something making sense.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Another Short Stroke...

The smell of harvest season awaites me. I am going home today, for the first time since college started. It is harvest season and I live smack dab in the middle of an orchard. There is nothing as beautiful as the trees full of apples; the colors are completely brilliant. Red, green, yellow. What more beauty can you ask for. Well, my vehical is pretty full of laundry, some clean clothes, flip-flops, school books, and a lap top. The weekend had begun.


Thursday, September 17, 2009

The First Stroke

I guess I caught the blogging bug. There has been a lot of talk about blogging in some of my classes and I have decided that it is time I conform and begin to blog, as well.
This blog will be a place I come to vent, reason with myself, and express myself through the art of writing. I am a Communication/Public Relation Major with a minor in Informational Writing. I love art, writing, and admiring the work of the best artist of all, God. My favorite book of all time is the Picture of Dorian Gray By Oscar Wilde. I have a lot of hobbies and interests. But, this is just the beginning of getting to know me. It is getting late, and as a college student, I must do the work at hand (Edit my Memoir Paper for tomorrow).